Friday, July 30, 2021

Toppling Giants

--for Stanley, Laurel, and Nicholas

It feels like an era 
of toppling giants.
No goliaths; these.
These are the ones
whose voices echoed
through the valleys
of the shadows 
of doubt
and whose shoulders
held up the sky
where faith hung bright,
sometimes clear,
and sometimes clouded. 
These are
the intellectual giants
of my youth;
their incremental landslides
have shaken my being
like earthquakes
that fell mountains.

Thursday, July 29, 2021

grand father clock

i thought i had 

moretimemoretimemoretimemoretime
and even then 

every moment rang
a grand father-clocking chime

ticking you away

Monday, July 26, 2021

bury me with you

bury me with you
i'll dig myself out 
eventually

i'm going to have to do 
anyway
just bury me

with you
it'll be quiet
cold and lonely 

as it has been
since cruel circumstance
too soon smothered 

your tongue, your
words, 
your breath

bury me with you
i haven't breathed
all this time

anyway

Wednesday, July 21, 2021

they told you death was coming--

they told you death was coming--
he was right now standing
before his full length mirror
in an undershirt, picking out his tie.

a ways off yet, he's got to have 
everything just so. death's a precise
mother fucker. they told you
but since he hadn't set foot out his door,

not yet, you couldn't quite believe it.
it's the feeling that there might be a guest--
you should probably polish the silver
and fluff the pillows. all this busy-work

because death is coming and what the hell
are you supposed to do with that?
isn't that the age old question? what 
would you do if you knew death was coming?

seems like most of us think we should
clean the house and prepare a meal
like death is going to sit down and complement
the succulent smoked salmon and tender peas

or some shit. but when death has picked
out his perfect goddamned tie, shined his 
mirror-bright, black leather wingtips,
tucked a knife in his boot and a gun in his belt,

he shows up like a hitman, all in black
because it hides stains better. just what
did we think? death was going to come gently?
no, death always kicks down the door

splatters the pristine carpet, and overturns
all the furniture. why vacuum that rug
when death just plans to rip it
out from under you? so back to the question

what would you do if you knew death
was coming? you'd fucking well try
to get out of the way, only nobody
can ever quite believe death is coming

until he arrives.

Tuesday, July 20, 2021

without the birds

word is, birds are dying.
songbirds, fledglings, dying.
we're asking that 
people stop feeding
the birds. we don't
know why they're dying.

but without the birds
what will i do?

because word is, 
people are dying.
nobody seems to know
how many are dying.
people are dying
and you are dying
and why? why are you dying?

and the birds are dying.

and the birds...
the birds are my only consolation.

how will I survive
you dying
without feeding the birds?

fading

it's the evening of the day
you're slowly walking a dark hall
your shoulders aren't as strong now
you are not as tall
i find that it is winter out
i somehow missed the fall
looking back--why did I glance away--
how have you grown so small
the light is fading all too fast
and you're not here at all

Friday, July 16, 2021

a gift for dying

 This is my gift to you;
a gift for dying. 
 I promise to 
believe with you
nothing is happening.
 I promise to talk as if
no part of you 
is missing.
 I promise to hide
my grief is
overflowing. 
 And someday
I'll meet you
where you are going.